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sometimes people leave and you just
can't do anything about it.
they leave behind a chill in the air where
their body warmth used to be
and you can light fires and candles and
shine spotlights in place of them
but it will never feel the same.
i learned that the hard way.
he decided one morning that he was ready
to leave,
and i saw it in the shadows in his eyes and
i decided i wasn't ready to let him.
he brought kerosene in
water bottles and hid
matches in his jacket pocket and tried to burn the bridges
but i put them out with extinguishers and
painted over the burn marks so i could pretend
they weren't there.
he felt bad because he didn't want to hurt me and
i felt bad because i didn't want him to be hurting but
i didn't want to be hurting either even though i knew
one of us was going to get burned by the end of it
(there shouldn't have been any question of who
it would be, but
i was desperate and i didn't want him to leave)
so there was no communication.
he did all he could to bring it to a close without
me noticing but i would always know and always
intervene and
it went on like that for some time until
i think he just grew tired of it and resorted to
ignoring me.
i had never been keen on the thought of finding
a replacement
but in those weeks after i went through so many new faces that
i couldn't even put names to them because between
strange places and living a wide-awake / intoxicated
stasis,
i just couldn't tell the difference after
the first twelve.
no light was ever as bright as him
no body was ever as warm as him
and it's funny because
he was never my light or my warmth
but he was close enough that i told myself
he could've been.
it was always about what
could have been.
i guess when nothing ever was,
the possibilities were all i had.
can't do anything about it.
they leave behind a chill in the air where
their body warmth used to be
and you can light fires and candles and
shine spotlights in place of them
but it will never feel the same.
i learned that the hard way.
he decided one morning that he was ready
to leave,
and i saw it in the shadows in his eyes and
i decided i wasn't ready to let him.
he brought kerosene in
water bottles and hid
matches in his jacket pocket and tried to burn the bridges
but i put them out with extinguishers and
painted over the burn marks so i could pretend
they weren't there.
he felt bad because he didn't want to hurt me and
i felt bad because i didn't want him to be hurting but
i didn't want to be hurting either even though i knew
one of us was going to get burned by the end of it
(there shouldn't have been any question of who
it would be, but
i was desperate and i didn't want him to leave)
so there was no communication.
he did all he could to bring it to a close without
me noticing but i would always know and always
intervene and
it went on like that for some time until
i think he just grew tired of it and resorted to
ignoring me.
i had never been keen on the thought of finding
a replacement
but in those weeks after i went through so many new faces that
i couldn't even put names to them because between
strange places and living a wide-awake / intoxicated
stasis,
i just couldn't tell the difference after
the first twelve.
no light was ever as bright as him
no body was ever as warm as him
and it's funny because
he was never my light or my warmth
but he was close enough that i told myself
he could've been.
it was always about what
could have been.
i guess when nothing ever was,
the possibilities were all i had.
Literature
anfractuous.
and I have so many things yet to show you.
none of this is beautiful
when compared to hair whipping out a car window
in a night so deep and far-flung from city lights
that you can see by starlight for miles.
desert grass desert dust sighing in the wind
chasing at the tires and the sky–
oh my god the sky oh my god that sky,
she calls for only her wildest children tonight.
she calls for us to gallop against each other
against each other our shoulders brushing with canyons with coyotes
like brothers
like sisters
she calls for us
calls after us
as we pelt free and far-flung beneath her blue-black belly
pregnant with planets
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windowpain
sometimes, the ache's a nighttime thing, a lonely thing,
a window-cracked-to-hear-the-rain thing.
sometimes, all you can do is wait for the morning.
i know you feel like you gotta fix what's broken but
some things are better left unspoken
until you can see the light on his face.
sweetheart, you're a delicate thing, a tear-stained thing,
a fall-fast, fall-hard, fall-in-love thing.
i know you feel like you're walking on glass but
sometimes you have to wait for this to pass
& try again tomorrow.
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lunaura
oh, you small, silver darling,
moonlight's child, oh-so-starving,
your fingernails are just like
the frost covering the treetops
this time of year.
the wind makes you shiver,
shaking the branches
and your limbs
and making you wonder
what brought you outside
in the first place.
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you were matchless
(incomparable) and maybe
that's why it was funny to me
that you started all the
fires
you were matchless
(incomparable) and maybe
that's why it was funny to me
that you started all the
fires
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The last line just settles in a pit you never knew you had. Great work! (as always)