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Daily Deviation
April 9, 2017
groupthink and gardens by catloversjt is a beautiful, emotional piece that uses carefully chosen figurative language to look at a common issue from a personal view
Featured by doughboycafe
Suggested by cursors-and-ellipses
Literature Text
we've grown so used to
stepping on flower buds before they can bloom because
they're a different color than everyone else's and
different doesn't fall into the category of "good" or "acceptable."
different doesn't fit here,
so we try and try again to soak stems in food colored water and
thick-coat paint on petals hoping that maybe our defects
will sprout some sense and learn to conform
and match the rest.
we took seeds from other gardens
and planted them in our own until our yards
looked the exact same as theirs and then
our flowers weren't a different color than everyone else's anymore and
that scared me.
i wanted deviation;
i had no desire to be like them,
but i wanted to be liked by them and
you can't have one without the other.
weeds littered the ground beneath the leaves
of my wilted plants and i wasted so much time
spray painting gravestones and
raking crop circles by the fence
that i lost track of myself and finally
i was different but i wasn't me
and i had no identity past the sun-bleached bones
digging holes in their coffins and
uprooting soil and
eating away at all my colored flower roots and
my roots and
my feet aren't even on the ground anymore
(but this isn't my garden anymore,
this is the garden of a desperate girl who wanted nothing more than change -
that's not me.
i don't want change,
i want to be like you, i promise i do -
see?
all my flowers areblue green, too)
stepping on flower buds before they can bloom because
they're a different color than everyone else's and
different doesn't fall into the category of "good" or "acceptable."
different doesn't fit here,
so we try and try again to soak stems in food colored water and
thick-coat paint on petals hoping that maybe our defects
will sprout some sense and learn to conform
and match the rest.
we took seeds from other gardens
and planted them in our own until our yards
looked the exact same as theirs and then
our flowers weren't a different color than everyone else's anymore and
that scared me.
i wanted deviation;
i had no desire to be like them,
but i wanted to be liked by them and
you can't have one without the other.
weeds littered the ground beneath the leaves
of my wilted plants and i wasted so much time
spray painting gravestones and
raking crop circles by the fence
that i lost track of myself and finally
i was different but i wasn't me
and i had no identity past the sun-bleached bones
digging holes in their coffins and
uprooting soil and
eating away at all my colored flower roots and
my roots and
my feet aren't even on the ground anymore
(but this isn't my garden anymore,
this is the garden of a desperate girl who wanted nothing more than change -
that's not me.
i don't want change,
i want to be like you, i promise i do -
see?
all my flowers are
Literature
Blueberries
I find myself grateful
for the existence of semicolons,
little things
keeping my life sentence
half open;
lost in thought
I wash the blueberries
with trembling hands,
you listen to the news
while making tea -
it’s a bitter cup again
but we have honey,
strong hearts, a lock on the door -
we have time for laughter;
in the end
it all comes down to this:
a bowl of blueberries
a kiss on the cheek;
Literature
cynical: arsenical
splinter-thorn boy,
it will all start to
d i s i n t e g r a t e
beneath you
you are
the least beautiful way to unravel -
all maggot-rot, no
split-thread, no
ribbon-torn boy
an architect of
self-abuse;
a god of
ru(i)n(n)ing
[away] &
no:
there is nothing holy about you
Literature
garden
the morning light slants
all golden and violet,
color radiates
all through my geraniums,
never to be picked,
only to be admired,
while we walk through the garden
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edit: wow thank you so much Sandyrockdragon for suggesting my work and doughboycafe for featuring this as a DD, it was a wonderful thing to wake up to and i'm incredibly honored. tbh it's rendered me speechless but i'm so grateful, thank you all for the support
NaPoWriMo day 3.
//make up your mind already
NaPoWriMo day 3.
//make up your mind already
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I especially love the second verse. ♡