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groupthink and gardens

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Daily Deviation

April 9, 2017
groupthink and gardens by catloversjt is a beautiful, emotional piece that uses carefully chosen figurative language to look at a common issue from a personal view
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we've grown so used to
stepping on flower buds before they can bloom because
they're a different color than everyone else's and
different doesn't fall into the category of "good" or "acceptable."
different doesn't fit here,
so we try and try again to soak stems in food colored water and
thick-coat paint on petals hoping that maybe our defects
will sprout some sense and learn to conform
and match the rest.
we took seeds from other gardens
and planted them in our own until our yards
looked the exact same as theirs and then
our flowers weren't a different color than everyone else's anymore and
that scared me.

i wanted deviation;
i had no desire to be like them,
but i wanted to be liked by them and
you can't have one without the other.
weeds littered the ground beneath the leaves
of my wilted plants and i wasted so much time
spray painting gravestones and
raking crop circles by the fence
that i lost track of myself and finally
i was different but i wasn't me
and i had no identity past the sun-bleached bones
digging holes in their coffins and
uprooting soil and
eating away at all my colored flower roots and
my roots and
my feet aren't even on the ground anymore

(but this isn't my garden anymore,
this is the garden of a desperate girl who wanted nothing more than change -
that's not me.
i don't want change,
i want to be like you, i promise i do -
see?
all my flowers are blue  green, too)
edit: wow thank you so much Sandyrockdragon for suggesting my work and doughboycafe for featuring this as a DD, it was a wonderful thing to wake up to and i'm incredibly honored. tbh it's rendered me speechless but i'm so grateful, thank you all for the support :heart:

NaPoWriMo day 3.

//make up your mind already
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TheLunaLily's avatar

I especially love the second verse. ♡