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Struggles

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I don't think she even cares...

Yeah, I'm smart. I know I am. But I don't think brains is going to get me through this one. I don't think smart is good enough. Not for April. I need to be more. She's not simple enough to be impressed easily. She's so complex, so... Complicated. So... Confusing...

But she's amazing... She's perfect. She's the most beautiful, wonderful, special, intelligent girl I've ever met. I want her to be with me more than anything else in the world. But I'm afraid that the feelings might not be mutual. What if she only looks at me as a friend? What if she doesn't even look at me as that? What if I'm just looked at as someone who saved her?

I may have messed this all up somehow... I might have thrown all of my chances with her out the window. I've already made a fool out of myself in front of her. Numerous times. What if that made her not like me?

Maybe I'm thinking about this too much. Or maybe I'm not thinking about it enough. I don't know! I don't know what to think anymore. I'm supposed to be smart. I'm supposed to be the brains of the group! So why can't I think this out? Why is this not simple? April's just not simple. But that's what's so... Intriguing about her. Well, there's lots about her that's amazing. Everything about her is amazing...

I wish I could just gather enough courage to tell her. But I can't. It'll mess it all up... I don't think she even cares like I do...

I'm almost positive that I'm not going to be able to figure this one out with logic. But... I don't know how I'm going to express my feelings without making a mistake. Maybe I just have to wait. Maybe I'll be patient and let April make the first step if she wants to. And if she doesn't... Well... I'll worry about that when and if I have to.

~Donatello
This took a really, really long time even though it's terribly short.

I did one for Leo, and one for Raph, and I knew I was going to do Donnie next.

I wanted to somehow describe how he feels about April and how he's unsure about her feelings for him, but... I don't think it came out very well.

I don't really ship Apritello, but I needed something to do for Donnie, and what better than the struggles with his feelings for April? Whether I like it or not, Donnie has feelings for April. So I might as well use it to my advantage rather than sit and complain about it. XD

Leo's: catloversjt.deviantart.com/art...
Raphs: catloversjt.deviantart.com/art...
Mikey's: catloversjt.deviantart.com/art...
Word Count: 341
Donatello is apart of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (TMNT). TMNT belongs to Nickelodeon and was created by Peter Laird and Kevin Eastman. All rights go to their respective owners.
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CakeBashingINC's avatar
umm no offense but why did it all have to be about April like dont get me wrong i loved it but i dont know what he thinks of everyone else no offense